Day Twelve: I see you

You must be doing something right I can help but want you. I think about you constantly. I feel secure in my love with you. There may sometimes be temptations but nothing is better then you. And I can't help but think I don't deserve you and that one day you will just vanish like a dream. If so i never want you to think that i don't think about you. I hope I never wake up. I'm sorry for the first few months. I was going through a lot and I felt like I was overwhelmed with emotions so I had just cut off all emotions altogether. I could see  your love for me growing and it scared me. It was to much for me at the time so I pushed it away. I wasn't ready for something so perfect and still saw life as I always had. It is hard to get out of an old habit. A nasty one that won't go away no matter how hard you try. But I've been trying for you more and practicing my smiles for you. I hope I don't ever let you down. I want to die, one day far away, at the same time as you so that we can walk through the gates together.