Day 24: I want you

It is you that I want forever by my side and I just want to ensure that happens. That we never stop dancing and feeling like life is on the tips of our fingers. That we never stop laughing and loving. And I pray that you never stop loving me, that you will let me be the queen in the castle you build. I pray if I ever lose the way you will lead me back again. If I ever go astray will you lead me back and love me anyway? I hope that never happens. I would never want to do that to you because it you I want forever. Because I'm convinced there is no one better than you. I love you. I want us to be together forever.

Day 23: Your letter to me

Don't worry yourself thin for me jess. I know you love me at least half of what I love you and thats sayin something. You are amazing. The things you laugh at from me and the weird spontaneous things you do. The way youre all over the bed and then giving me a drag with your foot. Who else jess. Who could i find like that. And i know it. =] i love you too. Obvi

Day 22: I want to marry you

Day 21: I want to grow old with you

Day 20: I want you more

Bonus: how I love you

Attraction makes everything stand still for a moment, suddenly everything fades into the background, and all you can hear is the beating of your heart; the person before you is all that matters, all you want.

This burst of excitement and curiosity that tingles all throughout your body very intensely. You feel a bit high. Time stops and you are totally focused on something you find beautiful, interesting, and amazing

The heart flutters, the mind races, the palms sweat, euphoria engulfs your senses. I just can't wipe the smile off of my face.

Day 19: what day is today?

When I am dead, my dearest, 

Sing no sad songs for me; 

Plant thou no roses at my head, 

Nor shady cypress tree: 

Be the green grass above me 

With showers and dewdrops wet; 

And if thou wilt, remember, 

And if thou wilt, forget. 

I shall not see the shadows, 

I shall not feel the rain; 

I shall not hear the nightingale 

Sing on, as if in pain: 

And dreaming through the twilight 

That doth not rise nor set, 

Happily I may remember, 

And happily may forget.

It would be awesome if I could say I wrote that, but it's by Christina Rossetti during the Victorian era. I had to read it for class and  I absolutely love it. 

"Be the green grass above me with showers and dewdrops wet." 

I love that verse! It is just seems awesome to me for some reason. I guess it's kinda morbid, but i can relate to that a love like that. It's like a want to be near another and wanting to make them to be happy and to find happiness myself. You are my strength, the rock I stand on. You are my shelter when I can't stand the storm. When I find myself in doubt I look for you to help me out. I hope you know how much I hope for and believe in you. I can't picture life without you. I love you more then anything I could say. So I guess it makes me feel how I would feel to ever lose you. And it makes me fear it I love you the more for all you do. And really you do a lot, probably even more then I give you credit for. I forget so much to love you for who you are and sometimes I'm a terrible listener or I don't give you the attention you deserve. You are doing a wonderful job and make me so happy. I just want to make sure that in the midst of this crazy life around us you know how much I really love you. 

Day 18: we miss you

Day 17: I love you most under a full moon

Day 16: your the love of my life

Day 15: See! I listen! Lol

Day 14: Painting You

Day 13: Let's create a world

Why haven't we allowed Gay's to marry? That is so stupid it just because our world has some religious hold on it.  We have spent too many years in centuries past repressing each other. I can feel though that our generation will be the one to change that. Our era will bring it all in. Everything the world forgot so much that they needed. I think we where subjected to the earth so much in the beginning that as we learned we sought to destroy it. We sowed hate and destruction and always got smarter. Until we had made people believe nature was icky and scary and unneeded. As long as we are high in our mansions and with our fancy cars and perfect life we don't care about anything else. The skyscrapers and bank buildings covered the ground. Shrouding out the smaller towns. Question is our we the generation that will finally allow ourselves to be free. To love. To laugh. To LIVE. To be happy. If anything let us start something. Lets take a deeper path. They will follow us I'm sure and if they don't they aren't fools, they just haven't learned yet the most important thing of all. It's the simple things. 

Hello: My name is Jessica

I just thought I'd introduce who I am. I am a 27 (I think) year old mother of the most beautiful girl in the world. I am in love with the best man in the world. He loves me unremarkably better then anything i have ever known. I am so incredibly in love with him. He rocks my socks off. I've run over a few bumps in my road called life. But everyone does. So I've decided to start blogging some of my everyday thoughts. Some are more personal than others.i hope you enjoy them all and feel free to let them inspire you.

Day Twelve: I see you

You must be doing something right I can help but want you. I think about you constantly. I feel secure in my love with you. There may sometimes be temptations but nothing is better then you. And I can't help but think I don't deserve you and that one day you will just vanish like a dream. If so i never want you to think that i don't think about you. I hope I never wake up. I'm sorry for the first few months. I was going through a lot and I felt like I was overwhelmed with emotions so I had just cut off all emotions altogether. I could see  your love for me growing and it scared me. It was to much for me at the time so I pushed it away. I wasn't ready for something so perfect and still saw life as I always had. It is hard to get out of an old habit. A nasty one that won't go away no matter how hard you try. But I've been trying for you more and practicing my smiles for you. I hope I don't ever let you down. I want to die, one day far away, at the same time as you so that we can walk through the gates together. 

Day Eleven: Your my dream come true

Day I lost count: Ten

And you know I have to write down this thought before I forget it and it becomes part of yesterday. And our story is too great to forget. We are my favorite subject. Promises are hard to keep, you know that, that's why you don't like too. But I never want to stop being as in love with you as I am. I would be the dumbest girl in the world if I ever gave you up. The want and my desire for you should keep me young for years. We will always carry on. You love me more then anyone ever has and in such a way that makes me want to fly and be free. You set me free but you ground me. How could I ever deny you? I never want to hurt you, I hope I never do, but I do not know the future or what it holds. I don't want to one day let you down like that. It would crush me to think of us in such a state. I never want to be there. We will hold each other tight and beam with love and build our dreams with brick and wood and fairy dust. Lets think happy thoughts so we can fly. I think we would enjoy a large family. I think we prefer our family's before other worldly things. And I really believe that will happen for us and we are the exception to the rule. i never want to hurt you and I remember more then once I felt like I had and felt terrible. I love you more then I have loved anything in the world. Almost as much as I love Mara but that's a different kind of love. You give me a full warm feeling deep inside and give me goosebumps every time I see you with your shirt off :) . None of the guys I see could ever compared to you and I hope I never forget that or lose our way. You treat me so right and right now I'm just high on us. Being in love makes me feel alive or at least being in love with you does.  

Day nine: I'm on cloud nine

It takes more then a cute face to turn my head away from you and I pray it never happens. As I know it you are the only real one for me and that's why everyone before was not so appeasing. I have been waiting for you all my life and now that I've found you I will never let you go. Thank you for being such a good father to my daughter she absolutely loves you. Thank you for always being there and for supporting us and making us love life.  

Day Eight: I love you for being my handy man :)

Day S3vEn is a little Wierd

Thank you Jer for everything :)

...edited this because this was the bottom line, and frankly, the only important part of the whole post :)

Day sex...opps *blushes* SIX

You know I've thought about you a lot lately. I've had really dirty thoughts. Felt pretty good too. I yearn for you while you not here. But it's late and I know it. I just wanted to say I love you. More then anything. Ever. .....

Day five? Lost in the clouds

I wish you would sometimes write me love letters. although I might initially be shocked. No one has ever done something like that before.for me. Although I wouldn't want you to do them just because I asked though. I don't want you to have to make up things to say to me. I want you to feel it and share it me. I think thats what guys don't understand sometimes.. We want it from the heart. we want to know you love us. we want to connect. But thank god i have found you. its like I've won the lottery by finding you. But ya, id like you to but not if you have to force it. It just seems like life sometimes is just making things up as we go along and saying things just because we know the words. One day you will be better at words maybe. or maybe will just develop a mental link. I just dont want you to force it. but i hope one day you feel it enough to be able to express it to me. 

Day 4: why does this seem like a milestone?

I feel like you and I are on the page now. There was something we where missing before but we have it now. I think it's our life, our dynamic as a family and a couple and its more then I could ever dream of!i love being with you. It There's something to the moment when you first light your first cigarettes of the morning while drinking coffee watching the first rays of the day slowly caresses the top of my toes as I smile at you knowing you are forever mine.that would be my perfect day with you. That and we would be looking at an exquisite land of which we have never been and we are in love with it. Can you picture it? There would be a decent sized vineyard with a small garden tended to it your wife. We would make a good enough living to be happy and get by. I just I am building our perfect world. Their would be no pain or sorrow or bills to worry about. I just realized I am in France on a vacation with you and we are madly in love. In that alternate reality, we have just decided to buy a vineyard because that's what we have always wanted to do and we can do anything. To my community tv show lover. Care to roll the dice? ;)

Remember ahbed on community roll the dice episode...Hinting at if our dream is possible in an alternation reality, would you like to roll the dice? We can be anything we want to be.

Day 3: I Miss You Stinky Face

You know I really miss you. I hope you know and I hope you dream of me at night. And I hope only of you forever by my side. You make me lighter then a feather and believe I can do anything and I work so hard because I believe in us. I see a future in us. I can build our future before my eyes and I love it. We are going to share so many great and wondrous moments together. And I hope you'll help me see the good over all the bad things that brings us down because we are better than that and together we will do anything.

Day 2: Simply With You

I want to live a simple life and simply love you. I want to always love you I could think of no other way. I know your not perfect but I love you anyway and you love me like crazy. I love making memorize with you. I want to grow old with you. You caught me every time I almost fell. I can feel how much you love me and I hardly ever doubt it. I love that you tell me how you are feeling. I love you.

Day 1: It's 1:11, Make a Wish

Today i have decided to start writing (and posting) one love letter every night for my husband who i love so much. its 1:11am and i wish...that we will live happily ever after with you...and I never stop getting that look in my eyes I see when I look at you. You are my everything and I can't picture life without you. You are the father to my daughter and I always wonder how you feel about that? I wish you are as happy with me as I am with you. I wish I intrigue you...every day. And that you always think of me in glimpses and phrases. And not being able to not picture me naked.i wish and pray we last forever. I want to build a kingdom with you.